Dear Insomnia..

So it's about 1:30am as I'm writing this. I went to go shower at like 12:30am after having a lovely heart-to-heart with my roomie slash good friend Becca. I showered, crawled into bed, then realized my bestest friend ever would be waking up soon. I set my alarm to just wake me up in the 35 minutes I had until then. But of course I can't sleep, cause all I'm thinking about is that my alarm won't go off and I'll miss getting to talk to my biffle. So instead here I am waiting for him. Granted I can't even sleep anyways, otherwise I wouldn't have even stayed up this late to begin with (maybe). Ah well. That's the life of me. I do have a test this evening. Which sucks. I should be getting sleep. I have to go to four classes before I have go to the class with the exam. And lemme tell you. That sucks old man balls. At this point I'll be getting about seven hours of sleep, probably less, which I'm looking forward to even less. I am positive that it'll be worth it though. I actually just heard my roommate leave her room for some reason. I figured I could possibly go say hi but that might scare the day lights out of her, so instead I decided to just stay in bed and write this blog.

I really don't even know where I'm going with any of this. My mind is just sorta racing fifty gajillion miles per hour right now. Not the best state of mind to be in when you're trying to sleep the night before an exam. I sorta feel like this is my friend right now, just letting me talk and talk with no real thoughts or opinions forming in my mind. Just lots of random babble. I hope yall can handle that. Sometimes it turns into something spectacular, but in this case I wouldn't hold your breath on that happening.

NINE MINUTES TO GO


I'm pretty much counting down right now. He'll know how to calm me down enough so I can attempt sleep again. I love that about him. Just one of the many things, really. He'll probably read this after class today or maybe before. I doubt before. Since he'll be getting ready for school. Which leads me to question if I should tell him when I talk to him in a few minutes or what until I wake up for my own classes. This is such a complicated decision, ehh. Okay not really. Of course I'm going to tell him. But also alert him to the reality that this really has no point to it at all. And now I'm being creepy because I'm just sitting here talking about him about what I'm going to tell him? Does that even make sense. Probably not. I don't even care.

Something funny did happen today though. I made fun of some people, a very broad spectrum of people, on twitter today, and a few hours later a person whose twitter name basically has to do with the group I was making fun of started following me. That was definitely a lol moment, if I may be so bold. I really don't think that could possibly be a coincidence but heyyy it's my twitter, it's my opinions, gtfo if you don't like or agree with what I've got to say. Those of you that do, more power to you. You've got a good head on your shoulders.

And Jesus, Facebook! Could you give me any more reasons to hate you and not want to you use? I didn't think it was possible. Oh but it is. I saw some statuses on my BlackBerry Facebook app, and I couldn't get the regular site onto my phone browser so I went to go try on my laptop, which was completely dead, because I let my roommate borrow my laptop charger. That may have been another reason I decided to just get up. I needed to charge my laptop and figure out what all the nonsense was about. It really is ridiculous. But apparently if you change your language to "English (UK)" everything goes back to normal. No surprise there, don't want to confuse those English folk with another new design. Just kidding. Sorta. Fights probably have just broken out of me saying that. Ah well. I've got that big pond thing that they call it to protect me, right? Plus I live in Texas. We don't like outsiders much. Especially when they threaten a good ole Southern Belle like myself.

THREE MINUTES.


Does this make me even more creepy that I'm counting down as I write all of this? Maybe. I don't care. That's how excited I am. Cause I am pretty exhausted, and I know I will be by the time I hit my fifth class for that exam tomorrow. It's going to be a long day. Thank the good Lord for caffeine.

Finallyyy one minute to go. I really am going to cry or something if he doesn't get on msn since I did say that I wouldn't be awake. But knowing him, he might try. Since I did ask for him to just leave me a cute little message. I mean, it'd be a nice surprise having me be here when he woke up, right? Why am I asking questions like I'll get a response? There I go again. Fantastic.

I'm seriously all but bouncing in my seat right now. It is officially 1:45am, Texas time, and 8:45am Netherlands time. Now just to wait for that little beep and red light flashing that signals my BlackBerry connecting me to my favorite person ever.

I know it's been barely a minute, but I definitely just messaged him on Facebook to make sure that he knew I was awake and available to talk. Which means I should wrap this up. I'll be passing the heck out immediately after our brief conversation.

xoxo, the little birdy.