Ignorance is bliss.. And a total pain in my ass.

You know how you always have that one friend, they're amazing to talk to, have fun with, all the things good friends should be. But they're completely ignorant to what you need or want. We all know who that one person is. And we also know that no matter what you say, they'll never get it. Which is just shocking right? I mean, I've already said we all have that kind of friend. Seriously, they've got to know this as well. Some things maybe I'll just never understand.

But to get to my point. I have this friend, that I love to death. I wouldn't be sane today if it weren't for this person. But after all these years, they just expect me to do exactly what they want, when they want it. Cause yeah, I'm that kind of person. I'll drop everything I'm doing to go do something else for someone if they absolutely need it. I could never ever ever say no, to anyone. I'd feel horrible about it, not matter how horrible the task was. So I'd do their dirty work for them, and put mine off, to the point where when I had no time left to do mine, it either ended up being a shitty piece of work, or I just didn't even finish.

Now to my actual point, I suppose. After all these years of doing just that, it's now completely backfiring on me. I guess I just never noticed it before? I wanted to make people happy, sue me. Except the me now, compared to the me then? I'm pissed off now. Like hell do I want to go do crap for people when I'm: 1. sick with a fever 2. stressed more than that person will ever be able to imagine and 3. hello, not my problem. So that makes me the God damned "bad person" for having my own shit to do, and not wanting to do someone else's as well.

I've learned how to deal with this though, even if it does suck. Don't fall for their mind games! Cause yeah, they'll try to guilt you into doing it for them still. But nono!! Don't give in. Who gives a rat's ass if they're angry then. If they're a GOOD FRIEND, they'll get the eff over it.

xoxo, the little birdy.

p.s. Plus, when we're off at college next year, they'll have to find a new bitch to do their work for them. And I can't wait for that extra time. Maybe I'll take up a hobby.. like bull riding. >:D