El Diablo.

Shyness. Will. Be. The. Death. Of. Me. Okay, that's a total exaggeration. But maybe not. I think it possibly depends on a number of things. Personally, my shyness just keeps my mouth shut and on some occassions that may be a good thing. Who knows. Depends (again) on the person you're asking. While I'm shy about certain topics, I can be quiet, listen to others and let them share their views. I do this so I can figure out just what kind of person this is and I can reformulate my words before letting them out. Just on the off chance they don't agree with me.

Err. Correction. Just on the 99% change the don't agree with me. I mean. I've got that 1%. But, I'm shy. I'm not taking any chances, yo.

Now I go on to talk about how I'm such a hypocrite with the shyness thing. I'm "mean" and pushy about trying to pop someones bubble and bring them into my crazy world that I forget that other people are just as shy as I can be. So then I calm down a bit, because I do understand, and let them do what they want until they're ready.

THEN THE MOST AMAZING THING HAPPENS. They're less shy. Little by little. And isn't that the most amazing thing ever? I'd definitely say so. I mean. C'mon. What's better than naming random things Poland and learning how to curse in Dutch? Nothing, I tell you.

Unfortunately, I have this problem about being unshy while someone else is shy, then when they get unshy, I get shy again. What is my problem. It's like. I am hardwired to do a lot of listenig when someone is talking and do a lot of talking when someone is listening. And no that's not the defintion of a normal girl. Girls just talk. And talk. And talk. I don't get when they come up for air. You'd think they'd just faint from exhaustion. But that's totally besides the point.

Shyness is the devil in disguise. It's like devil rain. But that's a whole nother story :)

xoxo, the little birdy.